On A Much More Personal Note

All moms recognize that absolutely chilling feel, when you know something is wrong with your child.

Not just a little bit wrong; ouchy, scratchy, sore, tender or mildly feverish – but really wrong and unless you work very hard to get an answer to just what it is, you’ll regret it deeply.

We’ve been there for almost 6 whole months with my oldest son now.  Yes, my wonderful teenage boy.  Your very own super blog photographer!

old wood bird house

His body wouldn’t tolerate his regular meals, and during the winter he started wilting away.  More appointments and medical procedures than I can keep track of.

Many friends must be wondering why they’ve heard so very little from me, for so long…          Well this is it.       A lot of time and energy invested in fretting and finding just the right answers for why he sometimes feels so excruciatingly ill…

And if you’re a mom, you also know the feeling of helplessness, when things are looking better, but you still don’t know what’s ahead.  And you would like to do more.  But you can’t just yet.

Honoring the kindest teenage boy ever here on the blog today.  He’s my biggest cheerleader and is so sweet with any animal he ever meets, even if it happens to be a pretty intimidating horse.

bringing kids to the barn

son walking next to mother riding a horse

Kind of intense with his camera angles sometimes.  Can’t help but laugh.  And in some pictures, there’s no telling what he’s really shooting, just the motion perhaps, but who cares?

papparazzi photographer and horse

close up of horse legs cantering

I know you’ll be alright soon!  Thank you for being a fighter, for being an awesome big brother, and for spending some of your summer time taking pictures of mom, going endlessly around and around.


23 thoughts on “On A Much More Personal Note

    1. Thank you! He’ll love to hear that someone likes his pictures that he keeps taking of me and Valiosa 🙂
      The ones of him are really grainy video grabs taken from a shaky phone by little brother haha.

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  1. Elinor, now you have me very seriously worried about your boy. I’m so sorry to hear about this. I have three (grown) children myself so I very well know that feeling of a child being ill and the worry…but this is a long and serious thing. I hope and pray you have answers and good resolution soon. Your boy is wonderful and we love his photographs, but most importantly we want him restored to full health so he can live his life fully and enjoy all that there is out there. Praying!

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    1. Thank you for thinking of us. It was really quite stressful earlier this spring and I got myself all run down. He came home yesterday from a camp, and he had done great. First time for a long time where he seemed be have had a very normal time. Fingers crossed!

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      1. Of course you were/are worried. Nothing like worrying about our kids to keep us from sleeping or to gnaw at our insides. Take care of yourself so you can take care of him (and the rest of the family). Hoping things are on the mend for all of you. Hugs.

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        1. 🙂 Each day he feels better, I feel a little better too! Grateful to have enough years of experience to know that things ALWAYS get better after a rough patch. Would hate to be 20 something again! 😉

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    1. Yep, he pretty much takes them for me, the few times per year he comes out. Then of course, I also have my husband to thank, and my friend Christel, Helena, Nancy, and even Michelle, – who’ve picked up the camera a couple of times. All the silly shots of just my horse poking around on her own… Well. Um, yeah, I take all of those 😉

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  2. I think the thing that most annoys me about modern medicine is that we still have to slog a long hard path many times to get to an answer. You’d think by now doctors and all their tests would just be able to pop out a diagnosis and it would be correct. And if there are meds involved, then it’s a balancing act among which ones really work and how bad are the side effects. Hope this, in the end, turns out to be something simple. Something that only requires minor avoidance rather than treatment? It is possible…

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    1. Exactly my thinking. Trying to practice patience, you still wonder, they can put a man on the moon, but not find an answer to this…?
      And you’re so right, the medicines involved sometimes seem to cause half as much trouble. For a month he had some 7 huge pills to swallow at random times, and it was really a chore to keep track of it all, and convince him to stick with it, despite getting worse at first. Thank you for thinking of us Alli!


  3. Please thank him for his photos. They have given me a chance to see Valiosa and to see you! As a parent of two adult children I know what you are going through. It is torture to have a child ill especially when there are not nice neat quick answers. I am not a religious person but I will put him into my positive thoughts.


    1. Quick, and especially nice, answers is exactly what I thought I’d get, once we transferred to a highly recommended specialist. Months later, we’re still not entirely sure.
      Really appreciate the good thoughts! He is well worth them!


  4. Hi Elinor, maybe you could look into the info Dr William Davis is sharing. (American doctor of the Wheat Belly book). I just got a feeling it has something to do with that. I hope you don’t mind me writing this. You must hear a lot of advice already 😦
    I LOVE his pictures!!! Good luck to your son and you and your family.
    Love Merel

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    1. I’m with you about that – it’s definitely on my radar. Going all gluten free saved half of me some years back. Since he’s so young, and there’s different symptoms though, we’re waiting just a while longer before experimenting on our own with eliminating foods. Who’d want to deprive anyone from pizza 😉 (Um yeah, myself, I don’t get any of that) 🙂

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